There are somethings I still fail to understand. One of them is to show your anger by not talking to someone. All reasoning evades me, and I am clueless why so many people around me practice this. I am sure they have not thought over how useless or destroying their this specific inaction may be. By not talking to someone, all you do is cut down chances of coming to better terms with that person! I believe it is a completely childish act.

However, on the other hand, its a very good way of showing your discontent about some matter or some person. In that case, I would say that its nice, 'cause you achieve it even without words. Its like blackness of silence on the white canvas of words. But then, all I have to say once again is that such boycott should be limited, because that is how it makes sense. Otherwise, either the other person stops talking to you, and its gone, or, the other person loses respect for you!

I had been keeping extremely busy for the last one month. I had so much work- maths and YATN. And though a lot was done, the load has not particularly decreased. With all that, I wasn't left with time to think or share my experiences with anyone- not even myself! Its a funny thing how quickly perspectives change with situation. It was just another day when (accidentally, but for good!) my two seniors Prashant and Parul) gave me treat at Oven Fresh, when Parul asked me "Isn't having a group to hang out with important?", to which I simply replied- "I don't think so- it depends on the person." And today, when I am here, at my home, with loads of work, but still comparatively free, I somewhat start to agree with her.

There are somethings that I now realize about myself- that I am a very good theoretician, but I suck as an experimentalist. That is to say, I am limited by my intuition about many things. Like when to speak. I speak very less, 'cause I don't know most of the time what to gossip. And now I realize that gossiping is kind of a binder for people. People feel more comfortable with a person who talks rather than the one who likes to keep quiet. Even my sis says that I don't share my feelings and thoughts with her; but the funny thing is that I don't have anything to share!!! And even funnier thing is that I get bored when people don't talk to me or share things. And I like to listen to all kind of blabber. That is probably because I end up forgetting all of what had been told to me! But now I realize that occasional blabbering around is a good thing...